First and foremost, sorry for the lapse in content. I’d like to blame something more concrete like a busy work schedule, too much time doing other important things, but realistically I have just been distracting myself. Given the state of things, sometimes I find it easier to do nonsensical things like play games or watch videos than work on what is really important to me.
I am still planning on working on the stuff I may have mentioned or eluded too before. My discord has technically been created (it’s a vegan travel discord) and I have taken steps in other projects and started planning for some new ones. I still plan on getting some pins created and will have two series of those out, one for nerdy stuff and one to promote positivity. I also plan on making an affirmation card deck…sorta. It will have a special take, but will be revealed later. With the deck and pins I may be looking into kickstarter, patreon, and Kofi to help get things funded and to keep intou with those that are really interested.
I’ll explain the projects in depth further down the road as more things come together, but I kinda wanted to re-address some things from an earlier post (not back track, just re-visit) because it came up AGAIN! In one of the previous blogs I mentioned imposter syndrome and what triggers me, and it came up again, as problems tend to do until they are nixed for good.
First and foremost, I’m pretty introverted, I’m weird with it though. So I like going to gatherings like conventions, but never as myself. Me walking around in crowds is a very uncomfortable me. In costume or masked is a totally different experience. Much more enjoyable. Recently in conversation with my office assistant, being young and successful came up. Now depending on your definition I don’t really fit that, in my head. While I am a new homeowner and I have a steady job, and I’m happily married, I haven’t reached the levels of success that I want for myself, and I’m approaching those middle aged years. For me to feel successful, i’d like my passions to also become my livelihood. Not saying it would be easy, but it is more about being happy in all aspects of my life, which leads me to those feelings. I have friends, talented friends that are supplementing their livelihood with their passions, artists, gamers, writers, voice actors, bloggers, etc. I feel like the more I see people succeeding where I want to succeed, the more disconnected I become from things I used to enjoy. I used to do more visually artistic stuff, little designs things, building stuff, sculpting, and I haven’t done most of these things for a few years now. I recently started doodling, but I never share it. Same with wanting to do voice acting, twitch streaming and well…writing.
Negative thoughts tend to get the best of me, and like a disaster it only takes a second to strike, do only minutes of damage, but have effects that can last a lifetime. That said Be kind to yourself and others (that deserve it or that you are willing to put energy into).
Let’s prepare to wrap up this year and journey into 2022. Yes some of the same problems follow us, but hopefully new solutions and innovations will also take shape.
I wanted to share some “tools” that have helped me through the year and maybe it will be helpful to someone else.
- Hindz
- Hindz has both videos on youtube and a podcast on spotify where he dispenses wisdom and helps with self reflection. (I feel like that is very vague, but if you want to know more check him out, it’s worth it.)
- RZA X Tazo Tea
- The Rza from Wu-Tang in partnership with Tazo Tea did a 6 part guided meditation series which I really enjoyed.
- Morning affirmations
- On days where I am not feeling the greatest mentally, or after situations where someone has upset me or offended me I will listen to this, sometimes a few times.
I wish you all a safe and happy new year, and may we all make the best of our 2022.
~Owl
The World Through My Eyes 