Some blogs I plan on writing, and those typically take a little longer to finish because I want to get my thoughts down clearly. Then you have these random blogs that get inspired by happenstance. I woke up 10 minutes ago at 2:28 am, 2/26/22 from a weird dream.
Recently I have been watching some famous/semi-famous people do vlogs about toy shopping and other randomness. In my dream it was me, my wife, a co-worker, a toy buddy of mine, and some faces I can’t remember. I had a stressful first half of the dream without the listed people, then I met up with them to enjoy the rest of the day, which I guess for me meant toy shopping. So we all walked to a new shop nearby wherever I was at the time. Once there we all said what we were hunting for toy wise and went off on the hunt, I was clearly filming it all because I couldn’t see the camera person, but I was there sooo guessing it was me. We spent some time and a bit of mine there before leaving and going separate ways, and for whatever reason I was alone. I walked to the subway train station and saw a street vendor selling music, movies, and books, and they already had some sitting there talking with them. I asked them if they had anything new from Wu-Tang, and the person that was talking to the vendor turned around, It was Raekwon! He tapped on a VHS tape the vendor had (titled red something in a weird font) and they put it in a sleeve and said $40 bucks. I responded with a confused huh, and the seller said $20, so I got it and turned to Rae and told him maybe I should have him sign it, and we banterered like old friends before he left. Then I started to go into the train station and the vendor stopped me and said there was some static at the beginning of the tape but it was good. I made my way down to a rough looking station, where some big slabs of concrete had fallen and were blocking some parts, and people were crossing on the track. I had a hard time remembering which way to go ( and I remember thinking how ridiculous I must look going back and forth in this station) and finally decided on going south. I bumped into Raekwon again and we talked a little before he hopped on a train going northbound, I yelled out “Later Sha!” and he gave me the nod. While I sat there waiting a preacher came up and was addressing the people that were also waiting. He was telling people god loved them and asking them to testify and tell their stories. One guy started shaking and crying, and started to tell his story on how he was saved, but I didn’t hear it, at least I don’t remember it as I write this. When he was done the preacher congratulated him on his journey and called his name. He called out a few other names (weird that he knew them) and a disheveled man approached and said to call his name too. The preacher asked his name and he said neighbor but spelled it naybor, so the preacher called his name at this point there were tears on all the faces that were watching the preacher, mines included. Then my train heading toward 86th came, I got on, and woke up.
Weird dreams aren’t new to me, and according to some people dreams are supposed to mean something. Sometimes it’s your brain working shit out from your waking life, sometimes there are deep meanings, sometimes you ate something weird or watched something weird and you went to bed with that shit in your head. I didn’t eat anything weird yesterday, though I did watch a weird movie with my wife with Rifftrax.
Now there are some nuances with that dream that are a little stranger than they seem, but it’s only things that I would recognize as being off. Firstly, the people in the toy store. While my wife does indulge me, and goes with me, I think for something like this she might skip? I honestly don’t know. The co-worker that came with isn’t a collector, her fiancé is, but I don’t think she is, and we’ve only ever hung out once or twice without him and that was before he moved here and I worked directly with her (we got food with another co-worker after a shift). I don’t think we would hang out together now without our spouses and I don’t think he was there unless he was one of the faces I can’t remember.
Second thing, while I like Wu-tang I wouldn’t consider myself a superfan, I recently got into Wu-tang after watching the Hulu program and some documentaries and interviews (Of Mics and Men was really good), While I remember hearing them through out my life, I didn’t follow them as much until recently. Of the members I would really love to sit down with and meet it would be the RZA & the GZA first because they are both vegan and have as wisdom that I am drawn to, I feel like Raekwon (and maybe all of the members really) wouldn’t like me as much based on other things about me, and the fact that I am not from their world, but that might just be my insecurities talking. (If any y’all are reading this I will make you tea if you ever make it this way I would like to pick your brains about life, music and martial arts movies).
Third thing, I am not religious but I am spiritual, so for a religious person to command my attention is usually rare. Church bores me, and I find it to be a closed view of things.I don’t think one way is the right way and to hell with all the other religions, each can learn from another.
Fourth is much, much, more subtle, I don’t live south. When I end my day I head north, and I don’t understand the relevance of 86th street, but it was prominent enough for me to remember it.
If I was to analyze this and give advice based on it, it would be this: Stress is going to happen, remember to make time doing the things you enjoy with the people you like and you may be pleasantly surprised at who or what comes into your world. While some journeys aren’t necessarily the way we want to go or are used to going, sometimes a little unplanned detour could wake you up to a message you needed to receive.
I know the world is kind of dark and scary right now, but please stay safe out there, be kind to yourself and others, and find someone safe to talk to if you need it. We all need to rant and vent sometimes, but not everyone can be trusted to be there for you, be careful placing trust in the wrong people and overlooking the right people.
Later days
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